Can't we not

Biglang napaisip. Anong klaseng tao nga ba ako?

May mga taong mahilig magbasa, may mahilig manood ng mga movies, may mahilig namang magdrawing o basta kahit anong art-related, may mahilig mag-aral at may mahilig gumawa ng mga kanta.

PERO ANO NGA AKO?!

Medyo none of the above ang peg ni ate.

Yung medyo nagswi-swimming sa lahat pero in no particular pool nagtagal.

Ito na ba ang totoong moment nang paghahanap sa sarili?

Hindi naman sa nawala, medyo nalilito lang sa daan na gustong tahakin.

YUN LANG...

BOW.

Now RACE MY BITCHES!

About the download I was talking about earlier, as expected, it failed.

And now, for some unknown reason, I am letting those downloads race to which will finish first. 

I was so close a while ago and now all those waiting was gone in a flash on a non-existent internet connection.

I wish I could talk to that thing. I would beg and grovel on its feet. I'M SERIOUS.

PLEASE, LET IT BE DONE THIS TIME.

I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO CRY IF THIS DOES NOT SUCCEED BEFORE 3:00 AM.

ALL MY WAITING...

GONE IN A FEW SECONDS.

SHEESH!

WHAT THE HELL?!

As of the moment, my life has been revolving from making virtual cupcakes to downloading videos.

And right now, my concentration is being torn apart into two by cupcakes. Do I make my customers happy or should I tell them go fuck themselves and make their own cupcakes?

I've been trying to download this things for two days now and my internet connection hasn't been cooperating with me. Or maybe it is, but it's not as enthusiastic as I want it to be.

DAMN YOU!

Please help me get through this.

I'm not going to say anything about the downloading part, I might jinx myself.

So...

OYASUMI! 

戒

Right now, I have a very weird addiction to Kai. His face is so refreshing that it makes me smile everytime I see him. He's like a breath of fresh air.

So in meantime, here's an adorable picture of Kai:

Back to Basix

It's kinda sad that I'm currently liking Alice Nine because of their looks, not much for their music.

So now, I'm going to just listen to them and nothing else.

All I Need Is A...

ALL I NEED IS A DECENT INTERNET CONNECTION

You're ruining my life

I'm totally feeling buyer's remorse right now. Shouldn't have updated to ios7. 

Now I'm beating myself up over it. SHEESH.

Now my fucking videos don't work. 

Now i'm just listening to songs saying: “DIE!!" Multiple times.

Should not have done it. UGH.

Now playing: Yami ni chiru sakura - Alice Nine

Now playing...

Currently listening to: Beautiful Deformity - The Gazette

I'm a newbie to this band so sorry if I was wrong on parts

So far this album does not disappoint. I'm liking the songs so far, but I especially love Inside Beast, even its PV.

MALFORMED BOX - It's the intro and it has a good connection to inside beast.

INSIDE BEAST - This song is very addicting. I like that it's mostly english. I admire the drums in this song.

UNTIL IT BURNS OUT - the title sounds like a song past paramore would do.

FADELESS - Oh Oh Yeah... The girl back-up is so... I like the instrumental part.

REDO - It feels like a slow version of REGRET. IDK. It's just me. I a sad-happy song. It's a sad song but the melody is quite 'whimsical' and airy. (?) OHMYGOSH!!! I'm a sucker for piano parts in a song! Whoever was that, I praise you! :)

LAST HEAVEN - It's ballad-ish. I've seen so many good comments about it and I am very excited to listen to it! The acoustic guitars... "Shape changing day by day" This part is stuck in my head. It's a mellow song.

LOSS - The beginning is so weird and then they revert to how they usually sound like. Feels like they're going back to their roots but still adding new twists to it.

THE STUPID TINY INSECT - The intro is very interesting. Feels a little dancy or a party song. And the refrain has this repetitive lines and it adds to it danciness and heabangable-ness. I like it. Reminds me of AFFECTION (A9) quite a bit. Sorry. Not that it's a bad song, sorry for the A9 reference.

IN BLOSSOM - As the album progresses the songs become harder, in terms of instruments. I like the chorus part. I like how it slows down on that part. It's like a calm before the storm and I like it when Ruki's voice goes a little higher.

KARASU - Bass. The songs are becoming more headbangable. The girl voices are quite similar to the girl voices in INSIDE BEAST. This song is a beautiful mess.

KUROKU SUNDA SORA TO ZANGAI TO KATAHA - It's sounds like the continuation of KARASU. Ruki's voice is reminding me of their early days. Tje chorus, again, is catchy. I like the drums in this song. Ruki is rapping? 

TO DAZZLING DARKNESS - This could become a good battle song. It reminded me of TriGun. It's like an apocalyptic song and it is your final stand. Or you're in a losing fight, you know it but you don't give up.

CODA - Well, that transition was very good! It didn't feel like the song changed at all. Western battle song. Ruki is talking. I realized that this was the outro. The guitars are awesome this time around.

OVERALL RATING:

8/10; It's a good album expected from a good band, though I was distracted a lot of times, I was able to appreciate it. :)

Sirius

「SIRIUS」- DIAURA

I think it's just fair to do a review/comment about this song, saying that it's the other song that came in tandem with 「Messiah」. 

I want to like this song more than the other one, but the chorus of the other one is just way too catchy for its own good. Still this song is more inclined to the things I actually listen to. Maybe I don't like screamo that much. 

I have an immediate reaction to this song. My head just instantly pops up whenever I hear this song and it feels like I've heard it before. And I totally love the piano intro. The song has a grand and dark feel to it. (Even without watching the PV)

It still has some screaming parts but still it's few compared to the other song.

PV wise, it is dark and gloomy and tells a story. I like a PV that tells a story. It has the elements of a typical rock video or visual kei video. The heavy make-up, leather outfits and candles. Appearance wise, I like the eye makeup of the vocalist, especially when he had the red contacts. He looked so innocent during that part.

OVERALL RATING:

Since this song connects with me immediately i would like to give it a 8/10, but I wish it was more memorable.

I SUPERIOR RIDE...

FANDOM VS. ME

*FAST FORWARD TO THE MOMENT WHEN IT'S ALL HEATING UP AND I HAVE 4 DAMAGE ALREADY*

Fandom: BIAS with 13000 power attacks your FEELS (10000 power)with the help of AWESOME MUSIC (6000 power).

Me: I guard with SCHOOLWORK (10000 power).

Fandom: Trigger check *draws a card*. Second check. Critical trigger. I give the 5000 power to BIAS and attacks your FEELS with the help of ACUTERANDOMMOMENT (5000 power)

Me: *Has no card on hand* Trigger check. Nothing.

Announcer: You have lost!!! FANDOM has completely obliterated your FEELS!

Random reenactment of how my everyday life goes. 

:3

Change

Once again this bitch changes her shit for the nth time.

It irritates me that I change oh so often people forget me. 

BUT!

Change is good! So maybe it's a good thing that I'm still finding myself and what I really want.

SO EAT IT ME!

Seriously

Seriously, THIS HAS GOT TO STOP.

I've been listening to one song for the past few hours and I've been telling myself that I don't like the song and whatnot but my head keeps on singing it, like I've got an earworm infection(spongebob reference).

It's a new band I'm listening to and it's just their one song, but somehow I can't stop listening to it... So maybe I'll do a review on the song.

Messiah - Mejibray
First of all, I don't really like the verses of the song. It's way too rock-ish for me or maybe I don't really like the screaming part but the chorus is very catchy. It gets stuck in your head easily. I downloaded this song with another song I wanted to hear but somehow I forgot the melody of the other one and this is just stuck in my head like there's no tomorrow for the both of us. The chorus just sticks with you like paper on glue (vice versa)

PV wise, it was the typical visual kei PV (is it right to say this?). The band plays in some grand and undisclosed location. There are the solo parts of the vocals and the place seems old and sepia-like in color. Then the existence of awesome clothes and heavy makeup but that's all. And of course, you can never leave out the "fanservice" (again, is it okay?). On the end of the PV, there was this thing that happened. 

OVERALL RATING:
Though I don't like the verses and the PV is the usual, I totally fell for the chorus so I give it a 8/10. :)

I kinda like it.

I don't even like the color purple that much but this phrase says so much... 

Dontcha think that "PURPLE GAS EVOLUTION" sounds so f***ing great?!

It sounds like a science experiment gone wrong and I actually got this from a chemistry experiment. 

Purple gas evolution just sounds so bad-ass. 

I LIKE IT!

Let's 「VANDALIZE」this!!!

.So I am going to make a mini-review; more like a comment of some sort of Alice Nine's album: 「VANDALIZE」.

1. The beautiful name

     - This song touches my heart in more ways than one. At first, I didn't like this song that much. Maybe because it's such a sappy song and not that rock-ish. But once I have read the lyrics, it made me realize why in the world the melody was made that way. If they made this song rock-ish, it would take away the meaning of the song. So I'm glad they made it this way. It sounds so grand and beautiful and it's very calming. Especially, the last part when everything is just fading away.

2. Hyakkaryouran

     -  I can't make anything of this song right now. It's a mix of pop, rock and a lot of synthesizers for me right now. I like how the verses are very calm and then the chorus would be made mostly of drums and Shou's vocals. It's a type of song I would easily forget and then when it pops out, I would like jam to it just a little bit. Which is kinda sad. It's happy upbeat song but the lyrics are quite sad.

3. RAINBOWS

    - Seriously, this one of my favorite Alice Nine songs ever. It's upbeat and It makes me want to get up and dance. It's something I can listen to everyday. I like Shou's voice here. Especially in the high part. Just before Hiroto's guitar solo. It's sounds so divine. I also like Hiroto's guitar-piano part. And this is actually the first time I've heard Saga's bass.

4. Kiss twice, kiss me deadly

    - It's a sexy, upbeat song, but I like the secret session better. Somehow the upbeatness of the song removes some of the sexiness. And I don't like the female background singer, I like Saga's voice better. And the lyrics bother me, just a little bit. It feels like it's not Shou writing. Though I give props to him for getting out of his comfort zone. He's just being a bit adventurous.

5. CROSS GAME

     - I love the first part, the guitar duet of Tora and Hiroto. Since it was made for an anime, I find it quite stereotypical, but still good. I also like the words "algorithm" and "allegro" Shou added somewhere in the verses. Once again, when Shou hits the high note, it's just divine. And the solo is amazing. I always like it when Tora and Hiroto play does a guitar duet.

6. Subaru

    - I've never actually learned the value of the song until I heard it as 「GOSPEL」. That moment when Shou started singing pulled my heartstrings. The lyrics, the melody and everything about this song touches my soul, cradling it gently and singing to me its sweet lullaby. I don't want to stop listening to this song. It's like 「waterfall」all over again. The pain of this song speaks to me. It makes me believe that through everything, people will be there to help you. And lastly, the fade away part is so amazing. I love everything about this song.

7. www.

    - This song is headbangable. Once again, I love the melody of this song. And the richness of Shou's voice is so tantalizing. The guitar solo part is impeccable. The lead is quite bass-like in this song.

8. Drella

    - the name reminds me of cinderella. I like the still part when the only thing I hear is the rhythm guitar. From my hearing observation, Shou's voice is quite edited. Just a bitthough, the integrity is still there. Again, I'm totally in love with the guitar solo. Just when you thought the song has ended, a short instrumental pops up.

9. MIRROR BALL (VANDALIZE EDITION)

    - This is the acoustic take on the original MIRROR BALL. This new arrangement changes the whole feel of the song. The slowness of the song really says goodbye to me. It's like a true farewell song. I sure do hope that it's Saga playing the piano though. This arrangement brings out the other side of the song. It changes the song as a whole. This one feels more personal.

10. Innocence

      - it's a happy song. It feels kind of childish to me, with a little hint of maturity. It's a playful song. The song amd the lyrics really says something about the title, even without knowing the meaning of the song, the melody really screams innocence. And the lyrics are also simple. Just like an innocent child.

11. Waterfall

       - Once again, it's a song that pulls on my heartstrings. It's a low song and yet Shou pulls it off like it's nothing amd them his voice just goes a little bit higher. The sound of the drums overwhelm me. I can't actually say anything about this song. It's just a beautiful song, with beautiful lyrics. There's a lot I can say about it except that it's amazing and divine.

OVERALL:

This album is full of variety. There are danceable songs, sexy songs, rock songs and slow songs. It's a hodgepodge of awesomeness. It shows a lot of sides to Alice Nine. I give it a 9.5/10 'cause of one song. Not that I hate it, i just feel like the other version was better.

The Beginning of the End

It's just been five months since I've entered college. I didn't want to get attached to anyone 'cause I know we won't be staying together for that long. It's not that I didn't want to have friends, it's just hard to say goodbye to things or to people you hold so dearly. It wasn't easy when I was in high school; and it's not gonna get easier this college. 

i don't like attachment but I get easily attached to things, way too attached. And when you leave them, it's gonna hurt like hell or like you've been run over by a bulldozer a couple of times. It's just gonna hurt.

Somehow, even with my socially awkward and socially unaaceptable behavior, I have made some friends and those friends I would love to call dorks have touched my in ways they I never thought anyone would. Somehow I found a new set of friends that made me feel equally special like my friends made me feel when I was in high school. It wasn't a lot but still it's something.

This block is not a block. Somehow it has become a piece of my heart that's vital to my survival. Not to the point that I would die without it, just to the point that my life wouldn't be complete without it. It's as simple as that. 

Once again....

Once again I feel like shit.

I feel like I want to kill every single one of the people I meet. Someone should seriously die or else i'll be in jail. 

I don't want to do anything today... I just want to lay down and watch 「Alice Nine」(though that technically counts as doing something). I just don't want to move around that much. I just want to lay around and do nothing.

I'm pissed off at everything today.

OH DEAR!

We have this dance thing in pe tomorrow and I'm totally not ready. In the first part of this dance thig, the routine requires a lot of hip movement, which in turn I do not have at all.

I have no body coordination  whatsoever. I have no sense of rhythm and most of all I have two left feet!!!

I LOOK AWKWARD AS HELL WHEN I ATTEMPT TO DANCE!!! AND HERE I AM TRYING MY BEST NOT TO LOOK AWKWARD, TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH THE DANCER STEPS WHILE GYRATING MY HIPS AS DECENTLY AS POSSIBLE !!!(which is not happening btw)

WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!

Oh gawd....

They're actually breathing!!

 

陰気な

I feel so melancholic right now... 

I don't even know...

Maybe because I feel tired or something like that...

I'm just not in the mood today...

I want to be alone and let my thoughts flow and be out in the wind....

I just need to get my shit together....

I feel like my life's out of whack right now... For me, nothing's going right and everything's just wrong. I can't even think right. I just smile like nothing's wrong but inside me, there's a turmoil going on inside my head and as of rught now it can't be fixed. I just seriously want to do something alone.

Be alone for sometime to get my shit together and let everything slide...

(I think I need to be funny, even just for a bit. It's like the obligatory funny thing of the day.)

It's hard to fangirl outside... ｖ（＾＿＾ｖ）♪

I'm outside... Which is kinda weird but that's not the problem here.

So I was... As usual... Watching Alice Nine videos and for no particular reason, I watched 「Heart of Gold」Hiroto ver.

And so, like the normal human being that I am, my fangirl feels decided to just gush out and shit...

Fortunately,

My body did a good job holding it in, but still I cracked a smile...

Fuck you Hiroto, fuck you and your overall cuteness  

and a generous serving of hotness.

Random things...

I should create a bias list...

Revamping my tumblr

I don't know... It's all out of the blue...
I was looking at everybody else's tumblr and they were pretty while mine is still the remnants of my high school group project in computer science...
It was a hard thing to do since I'm not that literate in programming and all the shit that goes in between...
I had a hard time putting a picture in my sidebar 'cause all of the words written in that css box...
MY BRAIN WENT:

"LIEK WUT?"

if anyone's interested here's the link: http://unicorns-on-ice.tumblr.com/

おわり

Good morning world!

I'll be doing a lot of random shit today...

I will be recreating valentine's day with my groupmates, which is kind of weird.

And since I kind of hate valentine's day, this thing will not be my cup of tea. I'll be ignoring it while my friends go at it. And maybe, I'll be ignoring everyone else.

I really don't like responsibility...

Also, I cooked pancakes....

And they failed bad...

Some are burnt, and only a few looks presentable...

So wish me (and my groupmates) luck... We'll be needing it.

For now, here's a picture of Shou and Hiroto laughing at your misery.

I feel like a bad fan... T^T

I'm an avid fan of Alice Nine and last night, they livestreamed a concert... And as usual I wasn't able to watch it in any way...

I go on tumblr and all I see are posts of the said concert and I'm just there sitting and being envious at people who were able to watch...

I should've tried to watch even just a bit... Just a little bit, but unfortunately, this poor soul did not...

And now everyone's talking about how fun it was, watching them and I'm here clueless about all the things...

I just feel like a bad fan because I don't know what everyone else is talking about. I wasn't there and all the shit fans think when they miss something everyone watched, heard or read...

I JUST FEEL HELLA STUPID...

(Ｔ＿Ｔ)

Revamping my shit...

It's been awhile since I posted anything and from this moment, this so-called blog will not be just about my fangirl feelings... I'll be posting shit about my life and things that make me tick or so other people say.

Though most of my life is about fangirling and shit like.... I do have life outside internet and have people that make me tick and people I want to kill... I don't know...

Also I have people that I love so maybe I'll be talking about them and my feelings....

I just feel kind of stupid for not continuing this...

'Cause i told myself I'll be letting it all out here, even if nobody cares at all...

 

For now, here's a random edit I did...

BYE!!!

Hiroto's black hair

Look at this blonde dude:

Now look at this:

HIROTO!!! If you're gonna do something to your hair, please tell us in advance or else you'll be seeing a flood of blood from your fangirls from every corner of the world!! I'm not a part of it though, my nose can't actually bleed from excitement but my blood red feelings will be intermingled with the blood of my fellow fangirls all over the world. <3

 And this has been a Hiroto-centric rant!

Brought to you by:

Fangirl with dreams

In partnership with:

P.S: Photos not mine got them from tumblr :) Credits to you guys!! I love you!!

P.P.S: Sorry for the horrible grammar... I was doing this while my brain was high with Hiroto's black hair...

To be continued....

This is weird but...




Shou-pun!!!

Finally... A PUN

Shou's a....








SHOU-STOPPER!!

*once again photo not mine

For no particular reason...

I've been reading the lyrics of Alice Nine in english....

I don't know... I just like reading them....

Sometimes it's so random and sometimes it makes the most sense...

And I just keep on staring at the gif below FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON!!!

BTW, how do you say gif?

Do you say it as:

Gee-eye-ef

Or

Geeef?

Just a random question...

For those who actually read this. xD

ASDFGHJKL!!!

MY FANGIRL FEELS ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!!!

Hearing Tora's voice for the first time made my heart stop and my breathing irregular...

At first, it was embarrassing 'cause he was practically rapping then when he actually started singing; his voice was actually quite pretty...

but seriously, I'm starting to make not human sounds and I be throwing and punching the nearest objects. :)

TORA!!!

*photo not mine

Waterfall

I never knew listening to a song made me so emotional...

So here I was saying to myself... "Maybe I should listen to some Alice Nine today"

So I pressed "Waterfall" and then the tears started falling like waterfall...

For the first time in my life, I found the song that would make me cry just by listening to its intro...

Then the lyrics came... Then all my feelings just decided to gush out more...

I could drown the world in my tears...


Waterfall

This song is too beautiful..

'Tis Hard

I have no idea what the hell I'm doing...

LEIKWAAATT??

I'm confused and since nobody is going to read this anyway I shall just deal with my confusion all alone.

TA-DA!!

I have managed to create another problem for myself. I guess... I should still keep a diary for my feelings...

(How random)

I hope somebody comes across this boring new blog thing... :(

Oh how I wish someone will... :)

If someone's out there, please heed to my pleads.

(It rhymes!)

(Again, HOW RANDOM)

Introductions!! :) ('cause 1200 characters ain't enough)

So!!!

First of all, I'm female! Though my profile picture... (Is that what you call it?) says otherwise.

My interests include: Anime, and Japanese Rock (J rock for short... Typing japanese is way too much for my small fingers to handle.. xD); specifically Alice Nine. :)

So from this day forward...(Though not on a daily basis) I shall let out (?) all of my bottled up feelings for whatever fandom I am in for that time being!!! Prepare yourself, you who are reading this!!! *Insert evil laugh*

Then I wonder... will anyone even read this blog of mine? Who would wanna hear some teenage girl ramble about her "feelings"? NOBODY!! But still I do this because I've been wanting to talk to someone or something about my feelings... Nobody in my house would listen because this is not of their interest... So whoever wants to talk to me leave a comment down there... I'll give you advices and stuff. :)

So I guess, that's all for now... :) Imma be beautifying this page right now...

B/N (Blogger's notes... Just in case... It's like an Author's note): It's my first time creating a blog so... YEAH!!

*The photo is not mine... Found it in the wonderful world of internet.. I'm really sorry I can't remember where the hell I actually got this. :(

*Stupid gif is not working